A post written the morning this picture was taken to my group of grieving mommies...
This morning I got to see the world from Zachary’s Heavenly perspective. As I woke and looked out my window I saw this view! Today I looked from his eyes at the glorious vista as things are in heaven, and as I did I thought of those down in the valley covered in the fog and clouds and I thought… right now their world isn’t too bright. Sometimes we have heavenly views and bright days, sometimes we have to BE with the fog and create an inner sunshine best we can. Some days, one just can’t. It’s ok not being ok sometimes… not all the time.
I still wake every morning with an awareness that I’m going to have to choose a bright sunny day regardless of the weather outside. It’s not a natural occurrence any more in the grief world. Not that every day is bright and sunny for everyone all the time before entering the grief world but I’m sure all you mommy goddesses get what I’m saying, before the grief world sometimes it just was. Now instead of Rise and Shine (I imaging most everyone has heard that phrase) now it’s Rise and Shift! As fast as I possibly can, it’s SHIFT the feeling I wake with, It’s SHIFT the thoughts that want to flood my mind. Processing the grief goo, kickthougthing those pesky thoughts that don’t serve one! Creating beliefs that create a better experience in the grief world.
Have you ever wondered how a belief system gets created? It’s a flow of similar or same thoughts repeated over and over and over until they become the norm, become a part of one, become a truth. As a child lots of these beliefs are created for us through the constant input of parents, teachers, religious exposure, television programming etc etc. As an adult, our programming continues through outside influence and our own thought gravity. Not until awareness takes hold do we have the possibility to take control and change our programing of negative self-talk and un-serving beliefs. Many times that awareness gets triggered through life challenge (or crisis).
For my days in the fog I’ve learned to create new beliefs and programming so my internal sunshine can light my way. It’s an unfathomable journey but I’m on it so I choose to make the best of it.
Because…
Zachary you are my boy and I am your mom and I love your forever. Here we go with another year honey…what are we going to do with it together!?!? ( I have some ideas!!)
So much love to you my mommy goddess friends, From My Heart to Yours 😇💙🦋